There is a fluidity to the rhythms in our lives. From the 9-5 grind, to dinner times, to television programs, our communities function on the clock. My wife can be incredibly particular in the mornings about her rhythms. It is a beautiful thing, until I get in the way. She has it down to a science. She requires a handful of snoozes to finally get out of bed, and then the woman is hyper-intentional about her time before she is out the door.
On the other hand, thanks to the flexibility and freedom of my employment, my mornings…happen. The lone staple to my mornings has been coffee, either at home or meeting someone somewhere at one of the incredible coffee shops across the OKC metro.
In an attempt to bring “healthy rhythms” into my morning, I decided that I was going to begin going on a morning walk with the Lord. My heart could meditate on scripture thanks to the YouVersion app. I could pray for my neighborhood as I walked each block. The idea brought my heart to life! It became my morning ritual for nearly 3 months, until about the beginning of April.
As I put my earbuds in and began listening to the Psalms, my heart spoke to me. This rhythm to help my inner life, to reflect on the things that I was enjoying about life as well as those things that were hurting me, had stopped being about Jesus and I. It has stopped being a place of intentional connection. It had started to be mindless. It has become like breath, a subconscious phenomena. And my heart was having none of it.
The adventure was over.
Reflecting back on the short season, I began thinking about where I went wrong. I thought, this should be the greatest thing happening to me. This should bring me some incredible life with the Lord. This time is going to make me a great follower of Jesus.
“Therefore humble yourselves under the mighty hand of God, that He may exalt you at the proper time, casting all your anxiety on Him, because He cares for you.” 1 Peter 5:6-7
My heart needed to lean on Jesus, not primarily a morning walk with Jesus. This healthy rhythm did an incredible job of uncovering the true desire of my heart.
I don’t long to couple things with the presence of God, it is Christ and Christ alone that brings me strength.
The longing for new rhythms was truly a desire to connect with the Creator in a new way. And it worked incredibly well for a season. However, the overall rhythm of my life requires genuine, changing rhythms.
I needed to walk for a season. I will likely return to the walk. But my desire to meet with the King of eternity needs to have some shake up to it. And instead of allowing myself to look at this as a place of defeat, I acknowledge how I am wired and move to a new adventure.
“Take delight in the LORD, and he will give you the desires of your heart.” Psalm 37:4